A friend was selected for an amazing internship - and she's simply an amazing person herself, but I find myself so jealous! :) She's living a dream I want to be in! But it gets me thinking, how can I get out there, traveling? I thought about being a flight attendant for the benefits. I remember when I was hired as a teacher, thinking 4 months in, how did I get here? Was this what I wanted? And I thought, no, this wasn't the plan - I was just gonna be a flight attendant so I could travel. I wanted to purchase an expensive camera so I could take the shots I wanted.
But those dreams don't pay the bills. And another tug on my heart was full-time ministry. Yeah, that doesn't pay the bills either. But it's so hard with dreams on delay. I think, lately, I've been needing to do some good old-fashioned praying. I've read and I've listened to sermons, but I think I need to get in the prayer closet and pray. I need the glimmer of hope and I want to live life for Jesus, and I don't think that means being depressed all the time (unless you are the prophet Jeremiah).
I know that things may seem uncertain and unclear right now, but I think that God will show you the way. I have been and will continue to pray that God shows you the direction in which you need to go. Perhaps it will be a process rather than a short answer, ya know? I love you girl! I hope we can get together soon. I miss you.
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